its inherited.

“Abang got 7A’s and 1B-BM. Family trait.” – Mom’s sms, 27th Dec 2007.

Why ar. I don’t really get it. BOTH of my brothers got a B for their BM! PMR ke UPSR ke.. Why B?? Of all the subjects, you guys scored a B for BM?? Didn’t you guys take tuition for BM??? I thought you’re a Malay!! Isk..

Is it because of the lack of exposure towards bahasa baku? Is it because we don’t watch malay tv shows/movies or we don’t even listen to malay songs? Is it because we’re too exposed to English language?? Is it wrong????

Something’s not right. The moment when I heard my dad’s ATTEMPT to give a malay speech, I knew that my MALAY family can’t speak bahasa baku! As in formal malay language. It’s an inherited disease!! You should listen to my dad’s half-way-bahasa-baku speech last year. He got fed up half way, then he changed to speak in English where he finds it EASIER?? Come to think of it. It’s hard to speak in the formal malay language. SERIOUSLY! No kidding! Try for one whole day to speak bahasa baku. You’ll find it exhausting!

“Mengapakah kamu tidak memakan lauk ayam itu? Bukankah masakan saya sangat lazat?”

“Pakcik teksi itu menganggu saya ketika saya berada di dalam teksinya! Dia sangat kurang ajar.”

“Saya telah mengambil buku itu dari perpustakaan dan terlupa untuk memulangkannya. Habislah saya”

“Saya berasa sangat malas untuk ke kuliah pada hari ini. Mengapakah..”

Take that! Told you it’s exhausting. I bet one of those sentences is incorrect, somewhere. Ughh..

this is the time of the semester when..

1. i start having headaches
2. flu is my best friend (ughh..)
3. books are my companion (exam approaching.......)
4. Food seems to pop in my mind more often than usual (alwayz labar)
5. Gluteus maximus glued on the chair (mengadap labtob & buku je~)
6. 3 layers of baju are keeping me warm and the heater is on 24-7 (i wonder how will the electric bill turn out next month....)
7. i'm TRYING to resist House (can't seem to..)
8. i miss home.

pressure.building.up.

nak char koay teow.isk~

My sweet 19

Molten Chocolate Cake, small yet MOUTH-WATERING birthday cake of mine~

It was quite a blast actually. exhausting yet satisfied with everything. thankful too of course : )

Chili's was where i choose to celebrate my 19th birthday. AWESOME.

To Ja, Yah & Wadat. THANKS FOR THE 'matang'+'cun' HANDBAG!!!! isk. terharu gile kot!!

and thanks to Fariza, Yani & Kuya too~~~ (^^,)

And not forgetting to every single person who wished me a happy birthday!! it means that i'm not a loner & i have tonnes of cool friends who cares about me!! i love you guys! isk~

So, the top 10 people that wished me first are - Daddy! Nad! Abang! Maklong! Mazzy! Sandra! Liyana! Khansa! Kak Ain! n finally Yah! CONGRATS!

If you wanna know what's your ranking, you can just ask me ok!~

Salam Perantauan

"Selamat Hari Raya Aidil Adha from ALL of Us"

Mansoura-Manchester Medical Programme

Faculty of Medicine

Mansoura University, EGYPT

10 Zulhiijah 1428

19.12.2007

Winter oh winter

As winter approaches, bad habits & temptations come along too.

A decrease in the temperature means the body is in need of more heat, where the stomach tends to get hungry pretty quickly (still making up theories why this usually happens) and this is commonly associated with the need of more and more hot chocolate & Nescafe~. And there seems to be snacks and junkies on my study table too. Who put it there!! Ughh.. distracting!! And undeniably tempting! Damn you junk food!! Stop seducing me!!

Must.prevent.obesity.diabetes.pulmonary embolism.DVT.erk…

And there’s one more thing about the winter. The bed feels comfortably cozier. Right??? and getting outta bed seems to be impossible!

Tido makan tido makan. Now you know where the 5kg came from eyh…

Hmm.. Should I buy another jacket? Or a sweater? Or a new scarf? Ok that’s the best part about winter. You get to wear winter clothes that make you look & you feel totally fabulous about yourself! Yay!

Must.prevent.shopping.broke.pokainess.don’t really care, really.lalala~ $$$$$

Hurm..Somehow that reminds me of my family. I wonder what they’re doing right now. Having fun eyh guys. After you replaced me with Faris!! You guys better buy me lotsa gifts from Gold Coast!!!! Or else there will be terrible consequences!!! Pissed. Annoyingly disgusted. Envy overpowering. Ughh..

Owh. Actually the internet was just a damn false hope. It was there for 4 damn days. Then it’s gone. GONE!!! Til now!! And I hope the DSL that baba promised is gonna be connected soon!!

a flash back.

“OK put on the gloves..”

“both hands?”

“nahh..just one side.ok now put your fingers like this”

“oh no..” (monologue)

This is considered as one of my cool memories, in the oh-so-awesomeness OPERATION THEATRE with Dr Quah, the O&G surgeon. Yea most of you all know I spend a lotta time in the OT during my previous summer break. Thanks to my daddy! Heee~

After being asked to put on the latex gloves, blurring in the sight of watching an old lady lying unconscious in the middle of the OT (unconscious = in deep sleep after being given general anesthesia by the oh-so-handsome daddy), we were actually in for a surprise (we = lucky you Fikri that you’re my friend eyh). Ok I don’t consider it as a surprise, but lucky-friend on the other hand was definitely damn excited about it! When I saw my dad pulling out a toothpaste-like-thingy out of the cabinet, asking us to stick out our index and middle fingers and putting a gel-like substance on ‘em, I knew that something OMG-don’t-make-me-do-this is gonna happen!

“put your fingers in there”

“what?????”

There? Where else!!!! Yes in there and don’t make me say it here! Ok as a future-professional doctor, I should be positive about this. Even though I don’t prefer doing THAT for the rest of my life. Look on the bright side! I have experience and at least I know what I’m gonna be facing soon. And thank goodness she’s unconscious!!

She had cervical cancer and so as a medical student, we were asked to examine her cervix. Watching my eagered friend doing it, it’s something like this… “OMG I can’t believe I’m seeing this!! Please don’t make me do that too, dad!! please!!” It was just jaw-dropping! I was speechless and I was totally and definitely terrified! Listening to what Dr Quah said, like “can you feel it? It’s like a ring and rough (because of the cancer)”, I felt like running away from there! And I was more concentrating on the old lady and hoping that she won’t wake up yet!

“OK kaklong, your turn..”

“haa??? Crap.”

The sight of watching him doing it, made me gulp and hesitate a couple o’times. But just a simple sentence made me wanna do this “you don’t get to experience this in Egypt, Miriam!” Plus she’s anesthetized and I’m doing this to learn! With a lotta courage and the hunger for wisdom, I did it. At the same time I felt sorry and kinda guilty to the patient. Isk. But its ok. Niat baik takpe.. and yes I felt the ring-shaped roughness.

The thought of having cervical cancer and losing your reproductive system, is just horrible. Hope that the cancer was not malignant. But Thank God the old lady is 62 years old. Meaning she has grandchildren already la!

That was my first encounter with cancerous cells, with just a thin latex glove separating us in between.

Undeniably cool.

"Forget Me Not"

by Isabel Wolff

Last weekend I was ‘lucky’ enough to be one of the chosen ones to catch a damn flu! Yay! And so, my housemates forced me to stay put & get alotta rest so I just pulled up my blanket and just stare at the ceiling. then I saw a flash of light!! Ok ok I’m exaggerating. I didn’t see any flash of light. Ughh.. whatever. I just had a flashback memory thingy you know. And I recalled that I did buy a book in Changi Airport with the intention of reading it while waiting for Yah for 3 hours. But when I read the first 6 pages, I just stopped.

It was a complete mistake judging the whole book just by reading the first few pages. I should have continued on. And surprisingly, the book is AWESOME. Well not awesome, I can’t put it that way cuz I didn’t really like the ending. But the whole entire plot and events and the way the author organized the whole story, I think it’s brilliant. And no kidding, I did kinda laugh out loud while reading it. Cuz there were funny parts of course! How can you not read about a single mom’s life that has a child that can speak Spanish at the age of 2 (she wasn’t even 2 yet!). OMG seriously I find it hilarious everytime she tried to talk to her daughter and the little girl replied in Spanish. How adorable is that!

I’m not gonna give anymore details on the book. “cuba try dulu” –just like a typical malay kan..?

alhamdulillah (^^,)

i'm back!!! there are absolutely no words that can actually fit to express this feeling!!

internet's back! and i hope it will be back permanently!! please don't disappoint me again. i'd go crazy!! isk. and obviously proven that i went berzerk during those 2 weeks of uncivilisedness! and kinda sorry to Yah and Ja who had to be the victim of my uncontrolable emotional mind..~ erk.

luck is definitely on my side now. everything's turning out as i wanted it to be.. i can chat with my friends uninterrupted now!! those people who miss me.. like cakubu.. and iman and the others that always wonder what my status would be this time.. haha! i know you guys miss reading my ever-changing status! muahahaha.

i'm just too jolly!! lalalala~ maybe because it's the beginning of December? December eyh.. an interesting month.. i wonder why... lalalala~

haaaa... this is how happy i am right now! ughh.. thats not me! that the infamous CAKUBU! she seems OMG-GEMBIRA-NYA-AKU!!! you should ask her yourself why. i'm just trying to find something similar to my over-joyness. and this is,you might say, an appropriate example.

relieved

Last night, the 3 of us, with the help of Kak Nut & Kak Wadat, settled down and TALKED. As in, pour our deep deep hearts out. Honestly, i felt like the bricks on my chest have been lifted and thrown away. ALL have been out. Well i think i did.

We let out the repository of so much emotions and all the dissatisfactory we felt towards each other. Yes there were crumpling faces & nail-biting moments to where you reach a point, that you don’t have the guts to pour it out. But when you have a third party, or PARTIES, it makes it alot easier and the expressing of those kept thoughts are much better poured out.

I thank the both of them alot for sharing all their experiences and wisdoms to the 3 of us, at the same time lending a hand or two in helping us solve our misunderstanding and truly grateful for their presence.

Then i realized that, locking your true feelings, meaning things that you feel towards the ones you love, including hatred, disgust or even envy, is definitely proven to be unhealthy. Let it out in a mannered way. Thats what i learned. Give a chance for them to explain their reasons for what they’ve chosen to do. eventhough sometimes you feel you are absolutely right. But you’ll never know that you might consider changing your perception towards their idea.

Bonding.Misunderstanding.Friendship.Love.Miriam.Hajar.Dhamirah.

They live under one roof.

Ja.Yah. i will always love you guys no matter what.

Mahlabbiah! you make happy!!

seriously. anybody.. anybody!!! who goes or are planning to go to cairo or somewhere near Sayidah Zainab, please tapau 10 mahlabbiah for me.. at a shop called "Al-Ban Al-Reda"
truely mouth-watering!! (literally my amylase can't stop producing).. omg. seriously there are no words to describe the heavenly feeling of every spoon of this milky, chocolaty, puddingness!!
thanks to Cakubu!! if it wasn't for her, i wouldn't find out that this God-given kinda dessert exist!!
seriously i can't stop smiling, eventhough there have been several unfortunate events that occured few minutes ago...... gimme gimme more!!

Stressful indeed

Undeniably. Tension HAS been rising. The thought of the exam which we will be happily facing this January and the thesis that’s needed to be done by the beginning of the next semester, PLUS figuring out where to go for the winter break (or not..) are pressuring this vulnerable brain of mine! Ughh..

Exam. Yes the wonderful world of a student. Something that all of us just can’t say no to. This semester is all about the Cardiovascular system (CVS),more or less. All the diseases, drugs, physiology, pathophysiology, anatomy, clinical picture of the diseases of the CVS, epidemiology, pharmacology, and all other OMG-HELP-ME things that we need to cover and moreover, to prepare for the upcoming exam. Isk. I have only one word to describe this.. “DOOMED”

Oh yes. Something new. THESIS. Kinda interesting tho. Each and everyone of us are assigned to submit a thesis by the end of the winter break. Which means, we still got 2 months or so to get it done! Nahh I won’t do it the last final minute. (maybe..lalala~) Good thing we’re allowed to do it in a group of 3! Yay! Hooray for me and Ja and Yah too! So we’ve decided, we’re going for Coronary Heart Disease. Cool! Really loving this cardio-thingy. (cardiology maybe?)

In this hectic situation, we still need to think where the heck to go for the winter break..There were suggestions like.. Dublin (erk.. I’d love to!).. and Saudi (forget it..) and also.. stay here! (crap.please no) so.. if this discussion is going nowhere, I might as well just hibernate the whole entire winter break!!! Ughh..

Ok this is the best part; my internet connection is still not ok!!!!!!! I have no idea how long I gotta be a damn parasite, going to my friends’ crib and using their internet temporarily.. is a pain in the a**!!!! (currently using Cakubu’s.. see how desperate I am!)

I am totally grateful for those people who are willingly welcoming me into their houses and feeding me at the same time too. but I can’t do this anymore!!!! Enough is enough!

So gonna get hypertension. Increase BP. Increase urination. (yes..its true.you’ll urinate a lot when you have high blood pressure)

Calming myself down with these songs…….

1. Death Cab For Cuties – Soul Meets Body
2. Kris Dayanti & Anang – Makin Aku Cinta
3. Jamie Scott & The Town – When will I See your Face Again
4. The Last Goodnight – Pictures of You
5. The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus – Guardian Angel
6. Anuar Zain – Lelaki Ini

Owh, and welcome Pak Lah! Not a clue why he wants to come here (the Mrs wants to see the pyramids and buy some asfour maybe?) and see us. US!! OMG. Kinda touched when I heard that his main purpose to Egypt was to meet the Malaysian Students. But Husni Mubarak found out he’s here, so he can’t say no to Husni. Haha! And Happy Birthday Pak Lah (^^,)

i want my lawyer

"you still have problems with your internet? insya Allah i will try to settle this problem with the internet company by next week" said Baba (the landlord) two days ago.

DAMMIT!!! i cant deal with this crap another week!! this is absurd!! insane!! mommy!!!!!! waaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!

awesome trip!

from 6am til 28hours later, i spent my friday out of mansoura, having an awesome vacation! thanks to the organizers! you guys really know how we malaysians have fun, eventho i ended up sleeping nearly the whole entire day on saturday.ughh. still awesome!

so we reached at 6 corners, a resort, about 3hours from mansoura. the resort was not bad. (i cant give a better impression cuz i come from Penang..ughh..obviously Penang has the best resorts ever)

so the plan was to stay there til 5pm. omg, crap. i have no idea what to do for 6 hours in that resort. and i think.. this is my chance to show off my blessed talent! so i went around and took lotsa n lotsa pictures! one of my classmate caught me taking his picture and nearly threw his slippers at me. as if i was stalking him!! ughh.. damn u!

the people who spent time with me aren't my housemates cuz they didn't come along. (merajuk mode) but cakubu, husna, aino, mizah n kak lily were the best people ever! and u guys know cakubu.. "wei lapar ar.." , "tolong ar wei, jom cari makanan.. aku dah starving gile ni!" ughh.. she tends to get darn hungry pretty fast. she eats alot but she's the skinniest one.what the.. can't blame her OMG-whataheck-laju-gile metabolic rate.

and OMG, i got to touch the Red Sea!! hahahahaha!! beat that!!! muahahhaa (excited gile)

ok enough with 6 corners. so they said "5pm, bliz be in ze bus" . i was like waiting til 7pm then only the bus arrived!! bodoh. that is so typical egyptian. ughh.

by 9pm we arrived at city stars! the largest shopping mall in egypt! yayay! shopping time! and that night was the 1st time i watched a movie in egypt! haha. and the best yet weird part about watching a movie there was, the have a 15mins break.............. THANK GOD the break was not during a climax!! if it was i would be cursing "wei bodoh! pasang balik!! tengah climax ar!!!!"

and they have salty popcorns.. ewww. haha!

ok we promised to be back at the bus by 3.30am, and OMG for the 1st time, they all managed to gather back earlier than the plan!! woo. around 3.15am we were off to ... erk.. i cant remember the place.. somewhere near Giza for horseback riding. and i didnt ride the horse cuz i was too damn tired cuz we reached there around 5am for God's sake!! ughh.. so while waiting for those people, i stayed in the bus.. nap time for me of course!

so after that, we went back to mansoura.. by 10am i reached home~ and finally, thats the end of the trip for me! yay! thanx again guys! i really need the vacation (^^,)

finally!!! well.almost ar.

after 5 days of disconnection to the world of internet, i got to online!! but at pizza station, a fast fo0d joint in Mansoura that has WIFI. wooo. cool ha. for a place in Mansoura. erk.

ok i am totally freakin' pissed. the internet company that connects me to my world of virtue somehow failed to do so for the past 5 DAMN DAYS!!! ok i know it has been only 5 days but i'm an internet-dependent person.. so it feels like forever!!!!!!! arghhhh!!!! damn u internet company!!!!!!!!! i want my lawyer!!!!!!!!! so gonna sue you!!!!!!

while enjoying my combo roll with fries (ok i'm suppose to be on diet but whataheck..), what has happened in the past 5 days was not much.

MUIZ.. little brother of mine who took UPSR 2 months ago, got his results today.
"kklong, muiz dapat 4a"
OMG. muiz. i expected from him to get 5a's since he was tuitioning (i have no idea whether this word exists or not) like every freaking single day!! morning and night!!!
ok fine i heard that Pemahaman was tough and all.. and he did make that "don't ask" face when he got back home after taking the Pemahaman paper. kinda sad though. mom, don't cry ok. i know he did his best on that paper. Muiz, do better next time ok.

and i have no idea what went on for the last 5 days cuz usually i get updated through here! i miss chatting!! and friendster!!! and my oh-so-precious blog!! really darn sorry cuz i cant seem to be online always like i used to since the damn company is being an a**hole.

please pray that i will get my internet at home A.S.A.P

ok fine i admit. I AM AN INTERNET ADDICT. lalala~

curse you internet company!!! curse you!!!

to the BLOOD SUCKERS out there

i hope you burn in HELL

meraba.stealing.

heard that one of my friends Mazzy Le Piu a.k.a Mazliana lost her handphone! really sorry for her. but you know its the same old story all over again.
HERE in egypt, its common if you hear someone's whatever got stolen. when they see anything they eye on, thats it. say bye bye! unless, you really really take extra care of your properties!
and they're go0d at ripping off the foreigners to0. for instance. you came across a shop. and you see something that interests you, like..a fake chanel shirt (omg you have no idea how many fakes they have here.. even GEUSE.. yup. thats how they spell it.) so ok they said its 100genih. you bargain til it reaches 80. the next day, you saw your egyptian friend wearing the same shirt and you asked "how much did you buy that shirt? i have the same one too!" .. "i bought it for 40genih." great.
KEEP THAT IN MIND.
the citizens here just couldnt get their hands off of us! literally! MERABA. omg. another thing that you always hear from the ladies. "aku kena raba kat siqqah!" .. "ada ustazah tu kena raba kat hussain! saiko ah" .. and it goes on and on.
yes. meraba and stealing. til now THANK GOD nothing has been stolen from me but the meraba part........... thats in the record. lalala~
BE CAREFUL .......
haih~ so you'll know what to expect when you come to egypt! lalala~

CUTI CUTI EGYPT~~~

owh don't worry. i still have plenty to talk about Egypt~

MERABA : sexually harrassing a living creature by putting your hands against a body part and pissing that innocent being off. (in case any of my non-malay friends dont understand what it means. hentam je)

welcome back (^^,)

SHE'S BACK! haha. really missed my big sis.. REALLY! .. and dearest Kak Wadat, her bestest buddy gave her the most touching and unforgetable surprise i've ever witness. truly~

Happy Belated Birthday Ja : )

NEARLY burnt the carpet.haha

hoping

let it be true. omg please let it be mine~ *praying*

so it begins.

Class has started. well actually it started last week. anyways, we have something new this year that made the seniors in the other programme quite jealous. miahaha. we're starting our pre-clinical already! 2 years early! huhu! yay! we'll be meeting patients and going to the specialized hospital (mustashfa batinah al-takhususi) every week! lalala~
OMG this university has its own specialized hospital, opthamology center, paediatric hospital, urology and nephrology center etc. awesome eyh? seriously you don't get that in every university. haha!

the day before i left

A LOT happened. not that much. but memorable.
practically went out for 12 tiring hours. but all those were worth it!!
yea i got back at 8.30pm and yea i am so not getting a car "kaklong jangan harap mama nak bagi daddy beli kereta untuk kaklong! who ask you to come back home at night!" (of course that didn't just end there..) but HELL YEAH! incredible that day was.
ok so the plan was. pick up nad, shaman and azim then go to wani's place then raya at her house first then bring her along to ayien's. ayien, OMG. her laksa was so ..i don't know how to put it but.. she totally can beat any makcik laksa at any laksa joint in penang! haha. then zaki, the annoying photographer came. haha. thanks to him, he took alotta cool pictures of us.and alotta inapproriate ones that were totally not worth of keeping it in my tolong-lah-kenapa-sikit-sangat-memori laptop.

so next! queensbay! wani? OMG. the best shoe consultant ever! thanks to her i found the one shoe i really really needed. thanks wani! its been a long time since i talked or chat with wani, so the whole entire jalan-jalan was just updating ourselves with the things that's goin' on with each other's lives. haha.

ok what's next? consume everything that i will not be able to eat in Egypt! so.. Dome!! Check. Paddington! aha. because i'm such a nice and good friend, i made everyone wait for fikri! thank God he showed up before 6. or i cant imagine what time i might reach home. so.. "810 dua ye!.. owh.. and 6 warm water and one mineral water please" coz the warm water only costs 50cent. damn i'm cheap.

then it was go0dbye queensbay! isk. it seemed hard for me to say go0dbye to the one and only mall i go to the most when i was spending my summer break in penang. tata queensbay! ~ isk.

and my best buddies to0! huuuu~nad! shaman! n my lil sis that i didnt get to see before i return to the land of the uncivilisedness and gile-busuk donkeys and camels .. (dugaan..accepting it with a heavy heart..God help me!)

really gonna miss (i hate this sentence.really) everything that i adore in penang.
including the char koay teow in Calom, the rojak in Gurney Drive, Paddington's 810, Dome's espreski honeycomb.
owh..and not forgetting my ya-Allah-tolong-la-jangan-kacau-aku-and-get-the-*f*-away-from-me brothers. my oh-so-adorable and loving parents. my omg-she's-gonna-have-a-baby maklong too! huuu~

i bid farewell to Penang.

raya? hoho. awesome!

this year's raya is OMG the best one ever! (i think..couldn't remember much about those raya i had when i was young..) anyways. perlis, my kampung. the typical kampung. middle of the sawah padi. infront there's a small sungai. fresh breeze that u can never get in Egypt (ughh..)
1st day was when we all visited our i-forgot-their-names-but-remember-what-they-served-us-and-where-they-live relatives.duit raya this year..pretty much increase due to the fact that i'm leaving to egypt on the 5th day of raya. (yay..ughh)
cousins? they are the ones that made me say "raya?hoho.awesome!"
and also the omg-my-ears-are-bleeding mercuns and get-that-away-from-me bunga apis.

yea the go0dbye is just the worst part of raya.
"jaga diri baik-baik" . . "study leklok" . . same ol' advices all over again.
a promise is a promise.and i will keep my word, Tok.really gonna miss her the most.

well well well..

you might ask why i'm starting a blog? entah. sebab tengok gang2 lain buat blog and then all of a sudden i have the urge of having one of my own. haha. welcome!

hope that this blog of mine don't bore you. or waste your precious time reading it. lalala~